Learning in Reverse

30, March 2009.

For those of you who read this outside o the midwest, we just recently had a snow storm this weekend. I thought it was spring already? wtfrick? It wasn't that bad I guess, we got about 4 inches of the white stuff where I live... I guess it could have been like what Oklahoma got so I'm not going to complain (much). I hadn't blogged for a while so I thought I would just keep it simple and give you a little run down of my weekend. I wish I could make this a daily habit but I'm not to that point yet! I love to write so this is a good release.. it's theraputic for me.

Friday night I recieved a new book that I had ordered off of Amazon.com so I spent most of my Friday night and Saturday morning reading this book. Let's be honest, I live in a small town in Iowa and I have little to do on the weekends without having to drive an hour. Since I drive almost two hours a day the way it is, with school all day and work wed, thurs, fri night till 11 or midnight.. most of the time I do not feel like driving anywhere on Friday nights after work or Saturday, therefore I have much time on the counch and I have recently started to get into reading. I don't want to blog much about what I am reading but I will tell you that the it talks a lot about Mystery and Style. If you can fill in the blanks then you know what I'm up to. See a few weeks ago I fell into my old mistakes of dumb ass-ism. I don't want to go into details with it but I realized that it is my downfall. I heard an analogy once that love is a like sand: If you hold it palm-up, the sand stays there, and doesn't move, but if you close your hand around the sand and squeeze, most of the sand runs out between your fingers until there isn't enough left to amount to anything. I am a squeezer by nature I guess... and I hate that. This book I am reading is teaching me how to turn the table. I felt like a different person as of the first page I read out of this book. It inspired me. I had my nose in the book all weekend. Realizing how much of it related to me and my life. I felt like the author was talking about MY LIFE. It's really cool, and I am excited for this new adventure. It made me want to discover new things. I have to experience some more of life. I have to solve this puzzle.

Sunday I went to church for my first time in quite a while which was really good for me. I have been reading my Bible a lot lately but nothing beats a good Sunday morning at church. I feel God working in me more and more all of the time. I think I only cussed a handful of times this weekend, and most of those were from playing COD.. and not cussing during COD is like not cussing during golf, ya know what I mean? Ha.

By the way I am going to try a new alias (nickname) and would apprecaite it if you would start to incorporate it when you address me. It is simple: Jag.

"I was afraid of losing what I did not have. I was afraid of rejection. I was afraid of nothing being around the corner. I no longer worry about these things. I live each day as if it is a new journey. You can not lose what you never possessed."

To new adventures and sunny days,
Jag